Forte

Mona — Wed, 11 Jan 2012 03:21:45 +0000

A friend recently said, “you don’t look like you have a soft side”.

I was.. quite taken aback. I mean, does he not see the constant, irritating outpour of grief and angst on this space that risks me acquiring an ‘emo girl’ label?

Admittedly, I pokerface with the best of them, but truth be told, I wish I didn’t have to.

State of suspension

Mona — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 02:13:29 +0000

I always wondered what it’s like to have absolute faith in something or someone. What it feels like to not constantly be on guard, or questioning and doubting everything because “they” say its better to be safe than sorry?

Despite how cynicism has become ingrained in me, everything -all the darkness and grittiness- just seems to fall away momentarily in the few hours (sometimes minutes) i’m with you. As usual, given my flair for the dramatic, I might be over romanticizing things but never mind, i’ll enjoy this while I can.

I might have my sunny days, but unfortunately, that is only a reminder that the clouds are lurking around the corner.

Rain

Mona — Mon, 19 Dec 2011 08:36:36 +0000

You know that saying, “it’s better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all”?

Funny thing, and this isn’t just about love, but to associate your lost ‘thing’ with this quote shows how much it meant to you. How big a part it played in your life. How much you grieve that it is no longer around.

It’s not better, because you will always use it as a benchmark, and until the day you truly let go, nothing will ever be able to compare. That being said, I wonder why we hang on to something that we know will eventually leave.

lazy afternoons

Mona — Thu, 15 Dec 2011 07:47:40 +0000

I thought I’d stay, but maybe it’s
better if I didn’t and just walked away.

You really can’t blame me for the uncertainty, can you?

Acceptance..

Mona — Sun, 04 Dec 2011 02:02:44 +0000

.. of what you cannot change, no matter how badly you want to, is the first step to being free.

I’m possibly sleep deprived, and the fumes from paint i’m blearily slapping onto my walls is definitely getting to my head.

I don’t think I can do this.

spew.

Mona — Sat, 26 Nov 2011 06:21:30 +0000

To quell the relentless voices in my head.

Now, when do you know when it’s the right time to leave?

move.

Mona — Sun, 20 Nov 2011 05:30:04 +0000

Relationships are transient, which makes me extremely grateful to those who stayed.

This has been a ridiculous year of extreme highs and lows and stagnant middles, and you guys made it so much more bearable.

I’ve said this before, that the concept of ‘forever’ is nonsense but perhaps for some of you, I can make an exception.

Turning point

Mona — Sun, 13 Nov 2011 03:57:42 +0000

Now that you look back, it’s funny how unnecessarily intense it all was.

It’s all good, i’m glad i’m here now.

#uselesshumanemotions

Mona — Mon, 10 Oct 2011 18:52:31 +0000

You walk away either leaving something behind, or taking something with you.

late night musings

Mona — Sat, 01 Oct 2011 20:37:06 +0000

Whoever said bracing for impact (I know this phrase has been appearing very often) is enough was wrong.

How can it be, when even just preparing to brace isn’t enough either?

One thing ‘they’ got right though, time does heal all wounds. Or at least, dulls the pain a little.